It’s a minefield

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In May, I was diagnosed a carbon dioxide retainer. I never knew the body could play such tricks and mess with your head. Literally.

We all, I hope, know that we breathe in air containing oxygen, and we exhale carbon dioxide — the oxygen which has nourished every part of our body, limbs, organs, brain. It is the waste product of that process.

The exchange goes on in our lungs. Oxygen in, carbon dioxide out.

I was diagnosed with respiratory problems five years ago. At first, it was mild. It grew worse over time. It has been…

How we can change that

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There are a lot of people going about their lives with the effects of trauma affecting their body, sleep, mind, and relationships. They often seek help from a physician and are given a prescription that either doesn’t work, or numbs their mind and emotions.

Trauma takes many forms — we mostly associate it with a form of violent physical impact. These can be a car wreck, rape, assault, being shot etc. Continued domestic abuse is trauma, as is being hit once by someone you trust, being bullied in childhood is trauma, any abnormal parenting is trauma although as children we…

We can all feel foolish sometimes

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In life, we hear a lot about having a good sense of self esteem. Indeed, positive self esteem is of great value. But on what is it built?

Self efficacy builds self confidence. So the more skills in life we have, the more confidence there is.

Efficacy is simply being efficient. If we are brought up learning age appropriate tasks, we have self efficacy. Being able to do most everything around running a home by the time we are moving away from home, we will have the confidence to do it.

This is how…


Our experiences

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Our souls are expanded by experiencing difficulty. Whether one calls it the soul, the heart, the mind, or the spirit, humans grow as they encounter the trials of life.

Long before Freud, Jung, or any other psychologist, Rainer Maria Rilke, poet, said;
“That is at bottom the only courage that is demanded of us: to have courage for the most strange, the most singular and the most inexplicable that we may encounter.”

He wrote this in a letter to a young man in 1904.

Poets by nature reflect on many things in life. My journey in this world has shown…

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’The gardener digs in another time, without past or future, beginning or end….here is an Amen beyond a prayer’’ Derek Jarman

Gardening is in my family. My mother gardened, my Dad did too. My grandparents gardened, uncles on both sides of my family garden.

I believe that gardening is innate within us; it just takes a spark to unloose the desire to nurture plants. I watched my parents garden for years, vegetables, fruit trees, flowers. I asked my mother if I might have patch of my own but she said no. …

It’s difficult

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Some of you have read Learning To Live As A Carbon Dioxide Retainer , and I appreciate that so much. Now, I need to stop researching my respiratory failure as it really looks bleak.

I believe happiness is a choice. I don’t mean we ignore our feelings of despair, indignation, or sadness. I believe what we have to be grateful for, health, a home, food, eyesight, hearing, birdsong, flowers, ice cream, etc is the platform for happiness and we deal with our uncomfortable feelings with those close to us.

I have found it harder to choose happiness in…

I looked for information about my fig tree. This time it said I should give it tomato feed every week. It also said to water once a week. Hmmm. Last…

I was sitting in my rocker looking at my lovely flowers, rejoicing in the lilies that look so regal. I regarded my fig tree, which I had just watered, and…

There is no other explanation

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While I was living in Southern California, I driving on a freeway. In California, one can overtake from any lane. I was used to UK regulations where you can only overtake from a slower lane. That is to say, one cannot overtake from the lane nearest the central reservation.

I had overtaken a vehicle and wanted to move back into a slower lane. I checked my blind spot and indicated my intention. I checked my blind spot once more and started to move over.

Suddenly, the was a loud whooshing sound. I cannot say how long it lasted. When it…

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This makes a great dessert that can be eaten warm or cold, with ice cream or whipped cream. Since peaches are now coming into season, this is a great way to use them. I have never tried to freeze this, so have no advice on that. It will last for 3 days in the fridge in a lidded container. However, that will mean it won’t look the same as it does out of the oven.

You will need:

  • 6 medium peaches (about 2 pounds)
  • 1/4 cup (packed) light brown sugar
  • Pinch of kosher salt
  • 2 cups granola (look for granola…

Chrissie Morris Brady Ph.D

I write what inspires me. I’m quirky. Recovered from severe trauma. Loves God. Traveller, poet.Please support me at

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